| Sudden Winter
Hello, I'm Alexa
it's the name my parents gave to me
My parents I love so very much
a mother and father both I used to have
but fate has taken one of them away from me
My mom, my mom is gone
So kind her joy.. .
eyes of hope, and friendship, and scolds, and advice
special her voice, her touch
no more
my mom is gone
So much to miss, emptiness surrounds me
where once was life and love and laughter
now only grief
In the night reaching for happiness
I cry, finding only sadness there
In the night straining to hear steps
I cry, finding only falling leaves
I have prayed to God in heaven
asking let this be only a sad movie
asking let this be just a bad dream
I have prayed to God in heaven
asking why oh please why
has this happened to her?
Neither message nor letter
have I ever received
I think maybe he and his angels
are out somewhere having tea
Sweet life lies shattered all around me
many wishes have been lost to icy winds
but I've gathered pieces as best I can
and outside my window I think comes spring
There are white clouds and bright sky
my cat is resting on shady green grass
Bees flirt with flowers under the sill
I see two swallows visit our apple tree
A little boy with a puppy, a bus pass by
busy noise
the world waits just down the street
I help dad and he helps me
I've got good friends for company
Mom is my past, her future is me
I have memories to set free
Someday I'll have a husband and children
I'll give them the care she shared with me
and in their smiles and laughter
I know I'll see some of her love
shining back on me
February 10, 1986
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